Spring Fever and/or Cabin Fever

Hello my fellow bloggers I’m stopping by to say hi and see how things are going in your neck of the woods.  In my woods the weather has gone from the high 80’s to the low 20’s and 2 cold fronts have come through bringing 2 days of rain but I can’t complain because we need the rain but the cold fronts now that was another story all together. 

One of my daughters Misty and I are moving back to Florida (the Panhandle) so I can be close to the beach and 2 or 3 lakes and bays.  That will be plenty of water for me.  Water makes me very happy it gives me more or less a new lease on life.  I know you have heard that saying when Mama is happy we all are happy but when Mama is not happy then we all are in trouble. LOL My children like to tease me about that very thing.   I think the move will be the best thing for me I’m coming up on the first anniversary of my husband’s death it will be 30May2013 and that day will be bad cause it is the first.  This is my last first thank goodness.  But neither my daughter or I want to be here in May. 

Spring is suppose to be a happy time and I guess for the most part it has been good and I know that I won’t miss something here in the state of my birth such as tornadoes, lakes being down, it being to hot or to cold. Also I think I will miss the saying if you don’t like the weather wait 5 minutes and it will be different.

So far so good everyone is happy about our move including us. LOL  I get to watch more baseball games in Florida because here in Texas they show the rangers, mariners, and the giants now of course I’m sure the show other teams but I have missed.  I think I am just ready to go somewhere else and so Florida here I come.  LOL

I hope you guys my fellow blogger enjoy your spring and try not to get spring fever to much and if you do then take a break and maybe go on a picnic with the one you love.  That is all for now till I see you again have a beautiful day and be kind to one another.

Redsoxlady35

Kat

Thanksgiving Revisited

I always loved going to my great-grandparents and grandparents home for the holidays.  We would go the Wednesday before Thanksgiving and change our clothes and get our chores done.  Go into the house to help finish the meal and set the tables so we could all get ready to eat.  After the meal was done we would finish up any last minute cooking such as pies, cookies and sweet potatoes, and all the salads that Grandma would fix for the big thanksgiving meal.  We would hit the bed early cause we still had to get up early the next morning to milk cows, gather the eggs, feed the pigs, and other chores that needed to be done. 

 

    I remember after all the chores were done and we were sitting around the kitchen listening to stories, and chopping the vegetables and whatever else needed to get done.  With my Grandma in the kitchen there was no telling what she would be yelling for you to be doing at a moments notice.  I loved sitting in the kitchen behind the island that she worked her magic on and listening to a bunch of women in the kitchen talk about nothing really but still learn something.  When it came time to set the big tables she would tap my feet and so okay kiddo go set the table but wash your hands first. 

 

   After everyone got sat down we would start at the head of the table where my great grandpa sat and we would all say what we were thankful for that year.  My grandpa Raymond every year was thankful for the same thing…it was that his parents were still healthy and his beautiful wife Ruby was still able to cook the wonderful food we were having and he had all of his children, grandchildren and great grandchildren under the same roof.  But best of all he had his healthy and he was a very lucky man indeed. 

 

    This year I’m adding some reason to be thankful too.  Even though I don’t have Carl this holiday season…he isn’t suffering and he is in a better place so I know that he is happier there then being in pain here with me.  I have my health such as it is, I have my children, grand children and my brothers and most of all I have you my cyberbuddies who have helped me out of a lot of messes and I appreciate it very much but best of all I do have all of you and you have never let me feel alone so thank you so very much from my heart to yours.  I love you all.

Love Kat

2013 Resolutions

    

    Well hello out there in cyberspace the New Year is almost upon us and I have just started thinking about my resolutions but I wonder why I ever think about them at all because along about March or April everything goes every which way and there goes my resolutions and I was doing so well too.

     One of the things I’m hoping for this New Year is that it would be a better than last year was for me.  In May it will be a whole year that my husband Carl has been gone so I just about got all the first out of the way except for his birthday which falls in March.  My doctor tells me it will take time before I’m really able to talk about him without feeling like my heart is being cut out without any medicine to kill the pain.  But I know the good Lord won’t give me more than I can handle but Lord my arms are a little full here. 

     The one thing that I think I need to do as far as a resolution is to lose a little weight and start getting out of the house besides just to the grocery store or the library every now and then because I’m becoming a hermit and I don’t want to do that because I have been there and done that.  I need to start talking pictures more and doing the things I have enjoyed in the past but have forgotten about.  I need to start meeting friends and going to the movie or out to the mall or even just hang out together and catch up with each other. 

     When the weather gets better up North I need to catch a plane and take Carl to Manchester to his final resting place.  He told me that he lived in some old mill buildings which had been converted into condos right across from the Democratic Hall where they have their Democratic meeting in the city when the President election is going on.  He said his street is packed all the way up to the Holiday Inn and the beyond.  He told me that Marie and him they met on the bridge every morning her coming home from work and Carl going to work and they would stand and talk for about 20 minutes.  Don’t you think that is cute? 

     While I’m up north I would love to go to NYC and check out the sites and just walk around town for a little bit.  It has been a very long time since I was in NYC I think that it would be fun and be a tourist for an afternoon.  I would probably go to Rockefeller Center and look around.  Might even go down and see O’Reilly to see what he is like in person.  I want to read one of his books he has written one about Kennedy and also Lincoln both should be interesting reading.  That is another one of my goals or resolutions is to read a lot more.  Yes Art I can just hear you say sale some more books first.  Yes I will because if I don’t sell my books I won’t have money to buy more.  I love to read and I love to have books all around me.  Maybe in my next life if I come back as a person I should be a librarian that way I can always be surrounded by the smell of books and I can help children and adults both find their love of reading. 

     I also would like to be living by myself at some stage in my life.  I still want to be going to Myrtle Beach with Jen and the girls not this coming summer but the following summer 2014.  I want to be living with Jen and the girls but I want to have my own space with a kitchen, laundry room, bedroom, bathroom and an office.  I know that isn’t too much to ask for but I know that most apartments and houses in South Carolina doesn’t have basements so that is going to be something that will probably have to be reworked a few times until we both are happy. 

     I have always loved to live by the water and now that I’m able to do that I’m ready to start doing that again.  I know that we won’t be able to live right on the water but maybe near the water will be okay.  Did you know that some things are beyond our control?  The one thing I know that I can control is my thoughts, my temper, and then on a occasion my mouth which sometimes when I’m angry it says things that I can’t stop.  But I’m human and even with that knowledge it is fun to get into a little trouble sometimes don’t you think?

     Well I’m having such fun with this paper I believe I will write just a little more.  How was everyone Christmas?  Mine was hard because it was my second major holiday without Carl and it was very harder because I had already bought his present last year two or three days after Christmas so it was wrapped and in with the tree stuff.  I just put it back in my closet and left it wrap as if he will come anytime and pick it up.  I don’t understand why I just didn’t give it to my brother or even Rick they both would have loved it but I would have to watch them when they wear it and I think know I know it would be hard for me cause I bought it specially for Carl and they would know that too.

     Maybe it would be hard on them too.  Plus I think it was the wrong color for both of them.  I’m not even sure if Rick would wear it because I’ve never seen him wear anything like it.  Mark would and he wouldn’t feel uncomfortable because I gave him a brand new pair of shoes that Carl wore once and Mark has gotten a lot of miles out of.  Mark has always gotten Carl’s hand me down shoes because he stands on his feet all night long so he always needs shoes. 

     Now back to resolutions have you ever thought about why you just don’t finish them?  I have been thinking about that and I have come up with several interesting reasons.  The first probably being the most logical one:  it is that we get lazy.  At first it sounds like we need to do this for our health, family, our jobs, our lover, but nowhere in the situation is there us, me, or I.  I wonder if that is why it always fails.  I have decided in order for my resolutions to work it must be for me not for them, family, work, or anything or anyone else just ME!!!!!!!  I think I would have a lot better chance of completing my resolutions instead of thinking as a group but thinking like an individual.  Second: not so ideal as the first but just as meaningful and that is after we make all the resolutions we can think of making we realize that we have make too many and there is no way that we can possible get any of them down.  We are way over the top and there isn’t anyway that we could even do one of them so not anything gets done.  So we don’t even bother. 

     I hope you have enjoyed this has much as I have.  I didn’t think I would enjoy getting into writing again but I am and I do.  Thank you for reading and please leave me a comment good or bad I would love to hear about what you think.  Happy New Year’s 2013 I hope that your resolutions are going to be completely this year I believe my will be. 

     May your New Year’s be good, better than last year if it was a bad year, May your ship come in and not pass you at the docks?  May your dreams for the New Year come true and your cup overflow with goodness and riches beyond your wildest dreams.  Take good care of yourself and you are in my thoughts and prayers. 

Love to all of you across the miles and the little pond,

Kat

MONTH OF OCTOBER

 

Well boys and girls it’s that time again when the October is here and the leaves start changing colors but it isn’t quite cold yet because of Indian Summer.  This is my favorite time of year…this year it will be a little sadder because Carl isn’t here to share it with me but it will still be okay because I know that he is in a better place.  The month of October is special for me for several reason besides the one already stated.  It is Breast Cancer month and one day I hope to be writing that they have finally found a cure for all kinds of cancer.  That would be wonderful. It is my birthday.  And last it is all about baseball my favorite sport other than tennis…it is the race to see who will play the World Series and have bragging rights for the rest of the year into Spring training.

 

I know that all of these things combined doesn’t really mean a lot to most people but I would like to think that finding a cure for all cancer would be a important goal.  Baseball isn’t important either to a lot of people however in the south and a few other places we take baseball serious.  I think for the first time in a long time (I’m talking about when the baseball strike happened) Texas Rangers is first in there division…Red Soxs have fallen down to third or fourth but they aren’t that many games out so they still have a chance.  Well will just have to see who is going to be left standing the best two that will play in the World Series….best 5 out of 7…..Good Luck to all and may the best teams win the chance to go all the way.

 

My birthday isn’t all that important this year because Carl isn’t here and it will probably be another day I have to get through….but I will because there is nothing else to do but survive it…Carl would have wanted me to and I will just because I’m not a quitter. 

 

I hope you have enjoyed my blog it is my first one I have been able to write..I did write about 30 pages in my journal which has helped a lot about the last year of Carl’s life and what we went through….mainly him and I think that help me to cope with all of the emotions I have been going through the last four months I know I still have a long ways to go but at least I’m beginning to think I just might survive too.  I love you all thank you so very much for hanging in with me. 

Your friend,

Kat